[He understands? He understands and that's why it's so upsetting, why it hurts so much when he tries to think about it.]

You think I don't understand. My whole life-- We Burnish do not kill. Other leaders of the Mad Burnish did, they burned indiscriminately, without reason, but I wanted, needed to be different. I would not be the monster they claimed us to be. We left escape routes, we did not harm anyone we could avoid, we tried to live in peace, but it was never enough.

I don't want to do it.