I believe mine is the same. [Apart from, like. Very tiny fires for comedic purposes and lighting candles.] I will not tell anyone. After speaking with Blue, I understand we should be saving these things. I think we will have a fight ahead of us.
[ . . . Then handing back the trumpet.]
It's good that you voted for me. It was what you needed to do.
Nah - me too. We'll see them again, I promised him. And Peach says we're getting close, too. [ a beat. ] Thanks for bringing the hat back to me, by the way.
[ that takes a second more for just staring down at her lap, and then she glances up at him. ]
You didn't do it on purpose. [ there's a lot in her expression - a little bitterness, a lot of sadness, but mostly understanding. ] And you lost him too.
[For all the people he's made the same apology to, no one's really mentioned that part of it. He blinks for a moment, a little taken aback, before he's back to neutral.]
Is it wrong, that I wish someone would be angry with me?
[It's a relief to hear someone put it into words at last. He doubts it's an uncommon feeling. He is tired of being spared it, though he isn't sure what he's gained by knowing for certain. At least a sense that he understands the way the world works. You do not take a life, no matter the reason, without consequences.]
. . . My predecessors, the former leaders of Mad Burnish, killed without reason. Indiscriminately. Burning buildings, towns, cities to ash without questioning why. I wanted to be different. Each life needed to matter.
That's why I like you, Boss. You know what you believe. And I believe you wouldn't have done it if it weren't for this fucking house taking over. I know it matters to you. I saw it.
[ a beat. ] It kind of feels - better to just let myself be angry. Let it hurt. We can both feel that way.
[Just nodding. He understands that. It's the same impulse that makes him want to feel all the guilt in the world, let it burn him alive. When she says "you and Galo are okay," well. Maybe Galo's okay?]
A little. [ her fingers flex. ] Not angry, really. A bit resentful. [ and, honest: ] I didn't love Mammon the way I loved Phoenix, Lio. Shit's not fair, but that's the way it is.
[Shaking his head! That's not really his point. He doesn't care if the standards are different. He's concerned for Hunter.]
You can feel what you like for me, I can bear it, but you need to let go of any resentment of Hunter. He cares for all of you deeply. He carries that like a knife in his chest.
I know he does, and that's why I'm not going to ever let him know there's even a small amount of resentment there. He doesn't know. [ sniff. ] He's a good kid. He gets anger enough from other people, and I won't be anything but a beacon for him. I refuse to.
[yah sorry for punching u in the feelings core, beau.]
People are much worse at hiding things than they like to believe. [But] Good. I know you care about him. I will do my best to look out for him as well.
[ it's okay her feelings core has been a wild mess since friday, she's used to it. she sniffs in amusement at that first part. ]
I care about him a lot. Ever since the emotionsharing shit, he's been - more than I deserve. [ slow sigh. ] Thanks. I appreciate it. Both of you guys have something else in common now. I hope that helps.
Peach keeps telling me that we need to rely on each other. I think she's right. All of us working as a team, together - it's going to keep us going. So - so I kind of feel like pieces of me keep breaking off, but I can keep it together and to myself if I know we're all working towards a common goal. We gotta.
[Okay, so. Luna taught him how to do this, and, he is intent on practicing, so even though she is all owl feathers and friggin' bones just
leaning in there and hugging her? It's not a great hug. He is very awkward. He hugs like he's planning to actually tackle you in a fight, but he's doing his best, and therefore, cannot be criticized.]
it surprises her! at first she thinks he is tackling her, and she makes a surprised almost-defensive noise, but. then she gets it, and her whole body relaxes. it's okay, she's a pretty good hugger, which means she can try to make up for how awkward it is. she sort of hiccups out a laugh and wraps her arms around him in return. ]
Yeah. Thanks. [ she mumbles. hugs sustain her. this'll keep her going for another few days. ]
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Some. And it still is not speaking to me.
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Maybe it's trying and it can't yet. [ a pause. ] I voted correctly too.
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[Nodding.]
For me, I assume. [He doesn't mind! He's pretty glad he got caught? Even Galo voted for him.] Did you receive anything useful?
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[ sniff. ] I got some of my ki back. I get the impression it's one time use, but - it should come in handy. Don't let anybody know about it, okay?
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[ . . . Then handing back the trumpet.]
It's good that you voted for me. It was what you needed to do.
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Yeah. [ it looks like she wants to say something else - but she stops herself. lio doesn't need to hear it. ] I think we've got a fight coming too.
I'll be right next to you, too. I voted for you because I had to, but that doesn't change anything. We're gonna keep going, right? Side by side.
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[Shooting a bit of a glance at the beanie too.]
I also believe we will see the dead again. [ . . . ] That is not meant to absolve me. Only that hope is not lost.
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Nah - me too. We'll see them again, I promised him. And Peach says we're getting close, too. [ a beat. ] Thanks for bringing the hat back to me, by the way.
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I'm sorry. That I took him from you.
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You didn't do it on purpose. [ there's a lot in her expression - a little bitterness, a lot of sadness, but mostly understanding. ] And you lost him too.
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Is it wrong, that I wish someone would be angry with me?
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[ honestly. ] I'm a little angry at you. I'm a little angry that you and Galo are okay and I just - have an empty room.
But that's not fucking fair of me, and I know it.
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[It's a relief to hear someone put it into words at last. He doubts it's an uncommon feeling. He is tired of being spared it, though he isn't sure what he's gained by knowing for certain. At least a sense that he understands the way the world works. You do not take a life, no matter the reason, without consequences.]
. . . My predecessors, the former leaders of Mad Burnish, killed without reason. Indiscriminately. Burning buildings, towns, cities to ash without questioning why. I wanted to be different. Each life needed to matter.
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That's why I like you, Boss. You know what you believe. And I believe you wouldn't have done it if it weren't for this fucking house taking over. I know it matters to you. I saw it.
[ a beat. ] It kind of feels - better to just let myself be angry. Let it hurt. We can both feel that way.
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. . . Are you angry with Hunter?
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Why?
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A little. [ her fingers flex. ] Not angry, really. A bit resentful. [ and, honest: ] I didn't love Mammon the way I loved Phoenix, Lio. Shit's not fair, but that's the way it is.
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You can feel what you like for me, I can bear it, but you need to let go of any resentment of Hunter. He cares for all of you deeply. He carries that like a knife in his chest.
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I know he does, and that's why I'm not going to ever let him know there's even a small amount of resentment there. He doesn't know. [ sniff. ] He's a good kid. He gets anger enough from other people, and I won't be anything but a beacon for him. I refuse to.
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People are much worse at hiding things than they like to believe. [But] Good. I know you care about him. I will do my best to look out for him as well.
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I care about him a lot. Ever since the emotionsharing shit, he's been - more than I deserve. [ slow sigh. ] Thanks. I appreciate it. Both of you guys have something else in common now. I hope that helps.
Peach keeps telling me that we need to rely on each other. I think she's right. All of us working as a team, together - it's going to keep us going. So - so I kind of feel like pieces of me keep breaking off, but I can keep it together and to myself if I know we're all working towards a common goal. We gotta.
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leaning in there and hugging her? It's not a great hug. He is very awkward. He hugs like he's planning to actually tackle you in a fight, but he's doing his best, and therefore, cannot be criticized.]
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it surprises her! at first she thinks he is tackling her, and she makes a surprised almost-defensive noise, but. then she gets it, and her whole body relaxes. it's okay, she's a pretty good hugger, which means she can try to make up for how awkward it is. she sort of hiccups out a laugh and wraps her arms around him in return. ]
Yeah. Thanks. [ she mumbles. hugs sustain her. this'll keep her going for another few days. ]