[Accusing! Angry! It isn't a fair reaction - none of this makes sense to him on the outside. All the things he's heard, gods and priestesses and magic, it's all beyond his understanding. Things aren't that complicated for him. There's clearly a story here he can't wrap his head around. But he knows he saw his friend on the ground, asking for them to kill her, and Agni doing nothing. He doesn't know what to do with any of that.]
If you won't help her, how do I help? What do I do.
... You can't appeal to any will to live for herself. Brilith has never had such a thing to begin with.
[he's quiet for a bit.]
Despite how she may seem now, she still cares in her own way. However... [how does he explain any of this?] ... she's lived for so long that her scope of what "matters" is distorted.
Dying means nothing to her because she believes that either she'll have another chance or that even if she doesn't, her death would do no significant harm in the long run. [and she isn't necessarily wrong about that. she's seen for herself that the world goes on.] But if she had reason to believe that a large enough scale is under threat, she might be more inclined to survive, out of a sense of duty.
[Again, with the scales that he cannot quite comprehend. Lio has always lived on an abbreviated timeline. He's only 19 years old, and even that is longer than expected. Burning bright, as hot as he can, for a short time before he returns to ash. The idea of a long, near endless existence the likes of which Agni has hinted at is almost terrifying.]
It isn't just her own life. It's all of ours. The duties that we have to attend to, those we have to return to. Her death would affect all of us, because we would have to fight that much harder without one of our own. I won't see her throw it away.
... And even that is a small scale compared to what she's faced before.
[which isn't, like, justification for her potentially not giving a damn. agni, who has cared about human lives when the other gods wouldn't, is the last person who'd say, "well, it's not a big enough scope, so boohoo."
but also brilith is very difficult to deal with.
he pauses.]
Though she's never had to deal with other universes before, so I can't say one way or another how it might change things.
... And part of why she prefers death is to forget, but it doesn't sound like that'll be the case here. So... that might help to dissuade her.
Edited (because it just occurred to me) 2020-03-15 04:21 (UTC)
[I mean, it's not wrong that even the entirety of the Burnish is a small scale. That's the end goal of any genocide. Lio has to think about it for a minute, arms crossed, pacing in a little circle - he isn't really . . . angry at-- Agni? Babo Kim? Whatever name he prefers now. He's just frustrated.]
No-- I . . . don't think you forget. They're still somewhere here. Trapped, like us.
And, to think of what will happen in the long run. Regardless of what happens to us, if we don't figure out what's going on, there's nothing to stop this place from taking others in the future.
If it takes certain people, then it really could place entire universes in danger. Ours, especially.
I don't understand any of this. I won't try to pretend to understand your lifespan, or Brilith's, or the workings of this place. We just can't give up right now.
[He starts to walk away before he turns back around, arms crossed. He's not very emotionally intelligent, it's taken him a while to get to this point at all.]
[tbh he's fine with either? there've been people who're like WOW YOU LIED ABOUT YOUR NAME but babo kim is actually more of a nickname than a fake name, so.
but it's four whole less characters for jan to type]
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madburnout) wrote2020-03-06 07:33 pm
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She regained a memory she'd forgotten and experienced one of mine. The combined stress was likely too much for her mind and it triggered what you saw.
[it's not quite the answer he knows lio's looking for, but he doesn't even fully know how to broach the subject.]
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[Accusing! Angry! It isn't a fair reaction - none of this makes sense to him on the outside. All the things he's heard, gods and priestesses and magic, it's all beyond his understanding. Things aren't that complicated for him. There's clearly a story here he can't wrap his head around. But he knows he saw his friend on the ground, asking for them to kill her, and Agni doing nothing. He doesn't know what to do with any of that.]
If you won't help her, how do I help? What do I do.
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[he's quiet for a bit.]
Despite how she may seem now, she still cares in her own way. However... [how does he explain any of this?] ... she's lived for so long that her scope of what "matters" is distorted.
Dying means nothing to her because she believes that either she'll have another chance or that even if she doesn't, her death would do no significant harm in the long run. [and she isn't necessarily wrong about that. she's seen for herself that the world goes on.] But if she had reason to believe that a large enough scale is under threat, she might be more inclined to survive, out of a sense of duty.
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[Again, with the scales that he cannot quite comprehend. Lio has always lived on an abbreviated timeline. He's only 19 years old, and even that is longer than expected. Burning bright, as hot as he can, for a short time before he returns to ash. The idea of a long, near endless existence the likes of which Agni has hinted at is almost terrifying.]
It isn't just her own life. It's all of ours. The duties that we have to attend to, those we have to return to. Her death would affect all of us, because we would have to fight that much harder without one of our own. I won't see her throw it away.
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[which isn't, like, justification for her potentially not giving a damn. agni, who has cared about human lives when the other gods wouldn't, is the last person who'd say, "well, it's not a big enough scope, so boohoo."
but also brilith is very difficult to deal with.
he pauses.]
Though she's never had to deal with other universes before, so I can't say one way or another how it might change things.
... And part of why she prefers death is to forget, but it doesn't sound like that'll be the case here. So... that might help to dissuade her.
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No-- I . . . don't think you forget. They're still somewhere here. Trapped, like us.
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And, to think of what will happen in the long run. Regardless of what happens to us, if we don't figure out what's going on, there's nothing to stop this place from taking others in the future.
If it takes certain people, then it really could place entire universes in danger. Ours, especially.
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I'll try.
[ . . . ]
I don't understand any of this. I won't try to pretend to understand your lifespan, or Brilith's, or the workings of this place. We just can't give up right now.
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. . . What about you? Do you feel the same?
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Hoping to burn out.
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... I am the fire of my universe, Lio. It doesn't matter how I feel—I have a duty to remain in the world, no matter what.
[such is the nature of being one of the highest gods.]
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Do not let it go out.
[That's like, a super mean way to say "please do not die."]
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but it's four whole less characters for jan to type]
You as well, Lio.